Hate.

Such a strong word. There are a few things that I truly HATE. Cucumbers for instance. HATE. Pumping gas. HATE. Mowing grass. HATE. Going to the dentist. HATE. Yes, I am a sinner. Yes, in my lifetime I have used the word HATE in situations and in the heat of the moment that I regret. But, since finding the love of Jesus Christ and becoming a FULL believer, the word HATE infuriates me. To know someone has hatred in their heart for another human being makes me sad. Not only does it hurt my heart but, it also makes me angry.

I grew up around people with little tolerance when it came to those who were "different" than us. I didn't get it. Heck, I still don't get it for the most part. I understand that the way people view others around them can be generational, I get that it comes from the "era" they were raised in. What I don't get is how it is 2013 and people can still, to this day, have HATE in their heart for people they don't even know. For people that aren't as wealthy as they are, or as white as they are, or for those who are just different than them.

I have spent much of my day today, mad. Really ticked off. I HATE that the negativity of another person has brought this mood on. I HATE that I can't shake it. Jesus says, A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another.  John 13:34. He doesn't say, love all the white people but not the brown because you are better. He doesn't say love rich people, not the poor because they worked harder. He says love one another. 

As children, adults would dote over children singing, "Jesus loves the little children, all the children of the world. Red & Yellow, Black & White, they are precious in his sight. Jesus loves the little children of the world." Until that sweet song is put to the test. Then it's Jesus may love all the little children, but my little girl better stay away from that little Yellow Boy! How do you teach your children to love one another and then be a bigot yourself? You think your children don't see that? You think they are blind to your ignorance? No, they are not. They see you & hear you. In the end, when put to the test, they will mimic you. I pray to the Lord that I can set a standard for my daughter to see me being accepting of EVERYONE. I want her to see me in action serving God by my actions, by my prayer and by the way I live my life. 

Today, I should have fallen on my knees and spent the day in prayer. I should have sought out the peace that only God can give. Instead, I sat and got angry. I got upset and mad, then I prayed. Prayer should have been first. 

How can we live in a place where people live their lives completely opposite of what the Bible says?

Fun + Fit + Friends

I need motivation. I need accountability. I need friends. I love my husband. I love my daughter. But, the good Lord knows I need my girl time. As you age (or as I've aged), priorities have changed. Things that were once so important, just really have no substance any more. Like, hanging out with friends at the bar. Yes, I like to have a cocktail now and then but, do I want to be caught up in the cat and mouse hype? Nope. I want an opportunity to see my girlfriends and not have to compete with all the random Joes and that crazy loud music.

I started reading Gabby Reese's book My Foot is Too Big For The Glass Slipper and she talks about the importance of female friendships and fitness. She hosts a weekly fitness group, at no charge, open to women. I've thought about this for a week now, after reading it. I thought, I can freaking do this. I have to do this.

I hired a fabulous personal trainer to work with for a month. Yes, loser, one month. But, I could not wrap myself around spending the extra money on working out. Then, my teeth started falling out my head and I had some extreme dental bills that were a must. So, I had to stop my tri-weekly trainer visits. After that, I've kinda sucked at physical activity...well, that and I really like Mexican food.

Here we are. I've done it. I created a Facebook Group and it's official. A time for women to get fit, meet new people, connect, socialize and share. Positive people working together.

I am pumped.

If you are in my area & want to join.. come on!

Been a Minute...

Hi, my name is Jamie and I'm a codependent, procrastinating, moody, stress eater. I'm also nearly a year late on blogging. What me procrastinate? Nah.

Since my last bloggy post I have gained weight instead of losing it, downsized my business (I'm so bored but, that's another post) and got married! Yes, married. Big girl done walked down the isle in a big ol' white dress. Didn't diet for it, didn't tan, nothing. Planned it in 4 weeks. Guess what, not pregnant either! Ha. I adore my husband. Not only is he my exact match, but he loves my girl. Now, I have two step-daughters and (gasp) a little grandbaby swirl girl. B-a-n-a-n-a-s. I know. Life is good.

So, I'm back on the wagon. The "I need to lose weight and get fit wagon". I swear this weekend I ate so much food I could have vomited. What the heck is wrong with me?? I have the, "I need to clear my plate" syndrome. Seriously, you betta believe when they come pick my plate up off the table, that mug just needs a little wipe down.

I watched a few of those "foodie" documentaries on Netflix and let me tell you, we are eating the most disgusting stuff on the planet. But, why o' why is it so freaking good? I like my saturated poly fatness. Unfortunately, it looks like all that jazz contains cancer causing scariness. Here's my new deal, eat organic and raw as much as possible. No processed, boxed meals. No hormone injected meat. No yummy bag of goodness.

Yesterday began this detoxification of fatness. I made this amazing chicken soup. Never in a million years did I think that a soup with kale in it would be good. It is fabulous. Here's a link to the chicken soup, of course, I found it on Pinterest. Is there a better invention than that? I mean, Pinterest people, I heart you. Anyway, the soup is yummy and filling and makes enough for DAYS.

This morning, I had broiled grapefruit. Another Pinterest find. You can find the details to the grapefruit here. I adjusted it a little and used Stevia instead of brown sugar and maraschino cherry juice and it was still awesome.

I've also added in mass quantities of green tea. Warning, it can be really strong. Add Stevia or honey (honey from your area is best, don't buy the cute grocery store bear honey). I like the flavored green tea.

So, here we go again, reckon how long it will last? Bets?

peace.
j